Emily Bieman, age 18 at Gunnedah - 
happy, finally out of that school

These were my favourite songs listed here -  but there's way more important things in life than Music, you really shouldn't concern yourself with music. Unfortunately, I purchased heaps of CDs when I was younger. Young and naive. Today, I would never purchase any music ever. And certainly NOT through Apple - Apple are the biggest thieves ever, followed by musicians. Plus, musicians get obsessed with people, and seem to suffer from the 'save me save me' syndrome; wanting other people to buy their music to save them. They are cruel and evil – demon like. There is an element of evil little boy in many music related areas, and you can see it on all social medias, widespread evilness.

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Little bit of trivia:  I heard this song on a tv show, and thought it had good vibes, so I googled it - “Walk Like an Egyptian,” by The Bangles (1986). It said this song was ban by both BBC in 1991 and Clear Channel Communications in 2001. Reason given; “to avoid offending those who would relate to this song and its references to Egypt, and the conflicts in the Middle East”. Can you believe that! I thought what a load of rubbish, I would say this song was ban because the people who did, are nothing but a dick-heads - there’s no other reason. Seems banning people has been a popular nazi pastime for quite some time.

Note, my days of listening to music are pretty much long over – music really is targeted at young people for a reason. Now that I’m older, I find music a little annoying, especially music, that’s not classical. But even classical, I have a limited listening period now, no more leaving the stereo on all day. I feel ‘music’ is like a child who wants all your attention, especially any song that has a lot of lyrics like horrid rap music for instance, and so your mind is not free to think about other things that you need to be thinking about, because the song is taking up your thought space, and usually with irrelevant and sometimes brainwashing content! And, it's so irritating getting a song stuck in your head!

And it’s my experience of musicians, that they are the biggest thieves ever - if not them, they have shoddy and stupid friends/fans who are. But lacking common sense, I would say so. I definitely recommend also not listening to the radio - I’m not sure what I would have said, if someone told me this when I was 20, but trust me, just don’t waste your time or money. Certainly, don’t go to any concerts or festivals, there are some truly nasty, scanky types who have come from abusive homes, that hang out at music festivals. Major thieves. Major. They pick pocket. And they follow you around like desperate leeches. They specifically target people who have been raised in good families, and would fall into the category of ‘sweet, young and innocent’. This is why people later on in their 20s get tattoos, because they don't want to appear as someone that you could victimize, they want to appear as "tough". They are "party" people, and I am not! But I have seen musicians egging these bad people on, to cause mischief and rebellion, and trouble; really working the audience up into a state of brainwashed rebellious destructive behaviour. Who then leave the concert and do all sorts of bad things later that night. (They are able to manipulate them, as those kids were raised by hopeless parents).

I remember reading about music in the 50s, when rock 'n' roll was just being introduced, and there was an element of people, apparently the ‘old bad’ people, who thought rock 'n' roll music was evil. I can see where they would get that attitude from, now as an oldie. But, I still love to dance to fast rock 'n' roll songs, well did, I have back/foot problems now, so can’t dance anymore. L L problems.

Someone told me that it was musicians who are manipulating movie / tv actors into being evil and targeting people by using their positions of power to be bullies. I'm not sure if that's true, but it would be rich and arrogant musicians who would throw the rules out the window and do what they wanted. A “class” prestige they kid themselves with by breaking “the rules”. And I'm pretty sure I have problems with radio DJs girls, who were sending me musicians, like they thought they were doing me a favour, because I like music, so I must want to speak to the musicians!! So bizarre - no I do not want to speak to any musicians, and for fucks sake get some common sense. (I’m sure the majority are good and honest people, but the problems with some, outweigh the good by far.)

And also, in Melbourne when they had just started online music downloads, I purchased 1 song and downloaded it from EMI, but then the thieves at EMI, charged my credit card (which actually was dad's, I did not have a CC back then - and you really need one, btw), so they charged me $30 at the end of the month, then every month for six months after that - so I purchased 1 song from their website for a few dollars, but the stole hundreds of dollars. Never ever give any music related people your CC. (So, since it was dads CC, I did not know they were stealing that $30 every month, when dad told me, I called them, but they did nothing and were zombie arsholes, and continued to steal the $30. Dad had to literally go down to the bank in Gunnedah and get them to cancel the card. There was no reimbursement. I want to add; Don’t think I was one of those girls who always carried dads CC around, and could charge it, whatever I wanted! - NO, ofcourse not. But before I left Gunnedah for RMIT, he agreed, that if I went down to Melbourne, he would pay for the course and course related stuff- (not incl accommodation, which was a huge problem).  Of course, that song was not agreed upon! But I thought I could pay him back those few dollars, as I had to pay for it by CC, so that was my only way to pay for it. And btw, after he agreed to pay for my course, I turned up to campus to pay, and suddenly he said he would not pay after all! – I was furious with him, I had just travelled all that way down there – 2000km or so, with my 4 cats. And so, I yelled at him. So, then he changed his mind again, and paid for the course. So, I guess I was pissed off with him anyway for doing that. And also, after it did not work out in Melbourne or at RMIT (I only lasted 3mnths at RMIT, no situation would ever work out if I have dogs – and like I have stated, I constantly have dogs now, they constantly follow me around wherever I go, it does not matter if I am studying, working, relaxing, - they’re always there, creating monumental problems for me, like stealing ofcourse. I can’t do anything, with dogs there. And having dogs for so long, means nothing will work out in the future either. I guess, having ‘no dogs’ is something that only happens to other people. (someone later told me everyone has dogs – but I doubt that, as more people would be winging). I feel I need to add, by dogs, I am certainly not referring to depression, I am not a depressed person, never have been. I am literally referring to stupid women who follow me around, like dogs. If I go up to check the mail - there’s dogs, if I go to plant out one of my trees - there’s dogs (Address pending).

So, after I left, he got his money back from RMIT – a full refund, so he got all his money back, except the EMI stolen money, and as if I could afford that. (I bet those dogs have ties at EMI).

Also, back in 2013 or something, way after I had transferred all my songs from all my CD's onto the PC into Apple iTunes, (a monumental task, about 70CD’s), iTunes deleted all of them, as back then the songs had no tags or information, just number names. So, then I had to re-install all of them. There’s like you know thousands of my songs from all my CDs that I’ve collected over the years, so fuck them. BTW, I later tried to sell my whole CD collection, but nobody wanted them!

Just because I have favourite songs over the years, does not mean I want you in my life. Comprehende?

So, after I had declared myself no longer interested in listening to any music of any kind, in 2025 in my 50s, juts watching YouTube, still unable to walk, I sometimes occasionally clicked the Autobiography stories about famous Classical musicians, that came across my feed on YouTube. And i realise that I really do like classical music, in particular, I like Opera, in fact I love Opera! I have always liked it. Someone, quite some years ago, told me that I was a soprano. This came to me as quite a surprise, but considering my scream, I guess it must be true. I am inclined not to attempt any high-pitched singing, as I believe, it can raise the dead!

I pretty much have never sung ever, due to the fact that I thought I must have a "bad voice". And, as I recall that time when I was kicked out of choir, they were singing "Downtown", which is a song all in low-key - so no wonder I had a bad voice if I'm a soprano! So, then I thought I've probably missed out all these years on the experience of singing. ☹️ And after watching a performance on YouTube, I was reminded of that singing teacher who booted me, as there was a song that was choreographed in this rather little girl style, a style that a lot of women adopt in their persona, like that singing teacher. The performance was an opera song. I absolutely loved it, as it reminds me of every single women have ever encountered! Whoever wrote that song is shear genius. And this particular singer really portrays the ‘little girl nature’ and that annoying ‘I’m winning’ rhythm, that I see so frequently in women. It was like total affirmation for me watching it, not only did I enjoy the high pitch singing and the kind of rhythm of it, but it was like total validation of "yes, that is exactly what women are like". So, not that I love women trying to cover their 'guilty bitch feelings' with jewellery, but I loved the acknowledgement that that's what they do. I mean the singer actually was dancing like a little girl would do too at one point, so it was comical as well! Really well done. Oh, I should mention this song was “Glitter and be Gay”, from the Opera “Candide”, written by Leonard Bernstein. And the clip I saw was the 2005 version sung by Kristin Chenoweth, who I'm pretty sure I have encounted before on telly, she is someone with absolutely no inhibitions, a total peacock, and probably has done some very bad bitch things in her life, fitting the song to a tea. She was perfect.

I saw a few other renditions, there was another one Patricia Petibon, singing it over in France, and she was wonderful too. I have given her their nickname of Olive Oil! 

So, then I saw my other favourite opera song; Eccola (The mad scene), from Donizetti's Opera 'Lucia di Lammermoor. Sung by the late amazing Dame Joan Sutherland. She is so good at singing Opera it is unbelievable.

And I just want to say as I was watching Dame Joan Sutherland for the fourth time, I really wondered if I could reach those high notes, like I was told a lot of women actually think they can sing opera because women have natural high-pitched voices! So, I kind of tried, and I just kind of got this croak coming out of my mouth! I mean I was lying down, but I knew instantly then, that I wouldn't be able to do it! And I remember my aunt Di, she loved Opera too, and there was one song, I can't remember which one, when she sung the extreme gusty gusto crescendo bit, Di would join in and sing alongside, and Di sounded exactly like the opera singer, like Di must've just practice this little segment bit over and over again until she had it pitch perfect, plus Di was quite a big woman, a big chest (big boobs), big frame, like she could really carry this deep high sound. Just like an opera singer. I thought it's a good way to sing in a dense suburban area, just put the music up loud, and you can get away with it - your only chance to sing "opera" without attracting too much attention to yourself! (Because they are really loud; sopranos don't even use a microphone at concert).